YOUR CHOICE

Leave me to die. Please...
I had never seen such coldness in his eyes. Every single word spoken in an emotionless tone had been enough to shock me, but the look in his eyes had destroyed any hope I could have had. He looked empty. You made your choice. Why are you still here?
"Why?" I felt like I was falling. Like there was no more ground below me and I was just falling, falling... "I, I... I was right! I thought you'd be with me on this one!"
He chuckled. But not in funny way like he uses to: it was way somber. "Really? And why the hell would you think that? Because we're friends? Don't be ridiculous: you're not my friend.
"What are you saying? Of course I am!" Is he making fun of me?
"No, you're not! All of this time I've met you, I thought we were... But in retrospective, I came to the conclusion we're not. I was your friend!" He said as cold as he has been since I arrived.
Was? "So am I!" I could feel my heart drumming loudly in my ears.
"No, you're not! All this time, you've done everything you wanted and I've been making the sacrifices to keep up with you. Not once you've sacrificed for me!"
"I don't understand. I've sa-"
"That's the point! You don't understand. You don't understand me!" He shouted at me.
I had never seen him this angry. I started to feel uneasy. "You're not making any sense." I looked him straight in the eye and kept my voice as quiet as possible.
"Because all you ever care about is reason, right? You have to rationalise everything!" He made a dramatic gesture into the air and turned to me again. "Do feelings mean anything to you? Did our friendship mean anything?"
"Yes, it does!"
"Then why did you still followed her?"
"Is this all because of that girl? She was lying to you! I had told you that... I only went after her to get you proofs." Was it that wrong? I was right since the beginning. I thought he'd be happy.
"Yes it is! I had told you to leave it alone, that it was none of your business!" The shouting began once again."Do you remember what I told you when you first came to me with your accusations?"
Of course I remembered. Stop going on about this or our friendship is over. Your choice. "I chose friendship! That's why I told you the truth about her..."
"Bullshit! You chose what you always do: to prove you're right!"
"That- that's not fair!"
"Isn't it? I was blissfully happy; enjoying my time with her and you came and destroyed it." He pointed his finger accusingly at me. "Who's the fair one?"
"It was all a lie!" I screamed back at him. "You can have all that with someone else... Did you prefer to be living a lie?"
A beat passed and he answered. "Yes."
I had no answer to that.
"I loved her more than anything else. Now, because of you it's impossible for us to be together. There always be rumours..." He really was hurting.
How could he prefer a lie "I didn't know you felt like that. But it will get better!" I motion towards him.
He stepped back. "It won't. Thanks to you! Please, leave."
"Come on! You can't be serious. I never thought you were so..."
"So what? Emotional? Irrational? Get over yourself! I'm not the one who's different from the rest." He retorted.
"What do you mean?" My voice was faltering, knowing what was about to come.
"No need to be afraid... You're a big girl now!" He said with a mocking voice mimicking a proud parent. "Big enough to go wandering around and investigating, at least. There's no need to sugarcoat it for you, nor a reason to do it. You're the one who doesn't fit the normal patterns: you're the freak!"
With that I said nothing more. I turned around and walked away. There was nothing left from our friendship.